I struggled with depression, self-doubt. I tried every effort by myself to overcome them, but it resulted in little change.
Each day from that timeline, I had thoughts where I feel like a burden and annoyance to my family and friends and that they are way better off if I kill myself or disappear and never come back.
The internet pornography addiction became a huge problem for me to the point where, in 2019, I did an evil thing, and it led me to probation and a battle with who I am. Then in 2020, the COVID-19 pandemic occurred, and it felt like everything was going from bad to worse.
However, God moved me to watch Greg Laurie's Harvest at Home service one day. Watching the whole thing has given me hope and the feeling that God really does care about me and saved my life many times. At the end of the virtual service, I commit my life to Jesus as my Lord and Savior.
One year later, I have grown my faith in Christ by praying every day and giving my cares and anything going on in my life to God, doing daily devotionals, and attending Harvest at Home weekly.
It has helped me overcome depression and self-doubt, and I have stopped watching internet pornography, and started focusing on sexual purity, and growing spiritually each day.